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I just cleaned out my inbox

i'm just exhausted all the time hhh work always

Sorry guys I've been in a rut mood-wise and art-wise and life-wise and everything

Art's kicked back in recently but I've gotten rather picky as to what to upload to dA

my gotsharpies tumblr's art tag has stuff in it

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People call me Pine (PINE!)

Eastern Venus Space Police

If there's slime (There's slime)

Involved in a crime (a crime!)

We'll clean you up on the beat (the BEAT!)

hahaha what

Alright I'll admit I've been hanging out on Tumblr a lot more often (on my new main, I kinda haven't touched my old main in a while hur but that's ok)

I also haven't been too art-productive as far as real finished things go

There's been suspicion that I might have fibromyalgia, so we're kinda trying to get that checked out -- gonna try to see a rheumatologist.

I am literally exhausted all the time, but I don't eat much (serious lack of appetite) nor do I get any real sleep -- insomnia and all that. Fun. (It's all a vicious circle -- but I've been trying to walk/jog nightly to throw some exercise into my routine, and I just may convince my roommate to exercise with me eventually muahahaha)
I also have some muscular/joint (not sure which yet?) pains in my back mostly god what I wouldn't give for a backrub dskfjsdlfjk

I'm concerned because I've pretty much lost a month's worth of semester time, but I'm just like... too tired to work double time.
I'm so lucky, I have a faculty mentor and an advisor who are so fucking supportive, they make me cry happiness seriously.
They've suggested a leave of absence, and as much as I don't want to do that... I almost feel like I should. I hate the idea, it's like walking away... but I don't know if I can catch up. qq;
I dropped biology because that is by far the most stressful class I have. Even though it's an intro class. But I dunno, everyone I know also thinks it's a pretty bullshit class. I might just take it at the local community college this summer with my friends 'w'

But then again, it could all just be depression too ahaha;;
But maybe maybe it's fibromyalgia. It almost looks like it from a layperson's standpoint. We know it's not mono/anemia. Lyme disease test probably coming back next week.

I don't know why I'm saying so much. Eh, gets things off my chest.

Since doing real school things seems to turn me into a depressive heap, I'm going to go ahead and just... pimp my tumblrs

gotsharpies.tumblr.com <- Main blog of feels and stupidity
crackedtarp.tumblr.com <- Art dump
ippongi-ryuuta.tumblr.com <- Ask Ryuuta

why can't i school anymore